Procastinating

I think everyone procrastinate at times but then there are some who have made it a part of their life. Where everyday life have been effected so much by procrastinating that  they don't realize that they have become the ultimate procrastinators.

Surprising thing is that I woke up to day and realized that may be I'm one of those. Who have been putting important things important decisions off by concentrating on less important or even better taking up other projects which involved helping others but I have been ignoring my life, my needs and more than that some of the important decisions that needs to be made my be to lead my life with out any hassles.

First it was my exams, I first took one year off from my exams and no to see it has been since three years I sat for my last exam. At the time it made perfect sense to take a break from the stressful deed but now it doesn't look so great. At that time the whole family was going through a toughest most horrifying experience we have been through. the murder of a family member, my uncle whom we lost three years back. And I found my self sitting in front of a exam paper next day completely blank staring at the paper pen in hand and nothing to write with tears in my eyes. it was such a shocking experience that even now when I think of I get goose-bumps.

Then it was the driving license which I was going to get. It just stopped half way through. Then it was another and another. And then today I just realized how many things I have put off for the future. I have actually put off my life and it's time I picked up things where I left off. Starting with the exams I will be taking this May for sure.

I have to take my exams and finish what I started. I already regret the fact that I put it off for this long.

Then I'm going to get my driving license this year for sure and get a small car it's time I took charge of my life, enough living in the shadow of others and doing what was acceptable respectable and boring.

No more procrastinating even if it kills me I will do what I have to do.

Karan Lamb said "A year from now you may wish you had started today.” So that a year from today I will be happy to say that I reformed my ways on this day I'm going to start now. 

Unforgettable

To feel the breeze caress my cheeks to know that you will never know the sorrow with in.

A day I will never forget , for better or for worse ....I will recall.

That we were , that we will never be . ....

For better or for worse the sun will shine we will look up at the sky 
life goes on it will rain and shine 
you my friend will be gone passing by 

what is forgotten and what is not is for us to decide with our head held high
Life will give you gifts and take them away it is said what is given is never to stay ,
what is yours will remain by you even if you try to loose them some how 

Our thoughts will make us or break us 
unforgettable thoughts will haunt us ...

January Sunshine

To hold you in my arms .....

“May flowers always line your path and sunshine light your day. May songbirds serenade you every step along the way. May a rainbow run beside you in a sky that’s always blue. And may happiness fill your heart each day your whole life through.”

- Irish blessing

The Light

 

We think it’s black and white

But we forget that most is not in the light

We defy all rules in search of the light

Alas we forgot mostly its grey

There is no white left in the light  

To Babies

It's Friday at work and then I thought I should share the good news, one of my best buddies had a little baby girl yesterday the cutest thing ever. Had to go and see the mother and the baby couldn't help it. The little bundle of joy so peacefully sleeping by the time I got there.

The proud parents were just grinning from ear to ear. These are the times that you realize why you’re living and the simple little joys in life so beautiful so precious.

Well I have been playing the role of the aunty with the rest of my friends for sometime so nothing new in that. But just can't wait to hold the little one. Yes I didn't do that yesterday.

And to think this same friend lost her mother just one week before, it was a big shock for everyone. The sudden death in the family and then my friend expecting the baby everyone went through a very tough time.

To think that one week before we were all in tears at the funeral and everything looked so grim and hopeless and now we are all smiling away with joy simply because of the new life with us. I guess life and death goes hand in hand. There is a time for tears then there is a time for joy. We all look forward to the smiles and laughter but the tears we dread.

Smile away and laugh as much as you want whenever you want because you don't need a reason for smiling :)

Cheers to Life!!!

Dazzled

It rained so hard did I tell you that

tearing down the trees that was high

flooding the gates that stood so strong

the children lost drowning in pain

The hunger and the pain that lasted so long 

draining away all the will that was

the sun was lost the moon hide away

Alas it was lost forever stashed away

Waiting for the sun looking for the moon

praying to the skies to guide us away

no more desire no more thirst for more 

we are happy as we once was

It was only one mistake that was made

that stabbed at the heart of all that it may

no more delusions no more lovely lies

It is what it is we are what we are in the end

To break the rules as it seems

to make ourselves lie empty in hand

to see the truth with our naked eyes

we say we like but did we lie

The tears and the blood that came and went

will mark its story forever to tell

the sighs and the pauses that stayed in place

Heaven and hell laughed all the way

What fools we were deceived all the way

sun and the moon can never be ours 

for keeps for ever that way

the dust is gone and we see the truth 

what empty dreams that it was

For all that is lost and forgotten away

we will never fall down again

let them come and dazzle away

the truth was revealed forever it may